So I am back in the waiting room at the docs having dutifully dropped off my sample yesterday morning. It’s the first time I have pissed through someone’s letter box (not literally of course)!
It’s been a turbulent week and I am now pursuaded that I am not pregnant but I have to go through the motions regardless. I didn’t have a normal period at all but have probably bled enough over a longer period of time for it to actually have been one. I had the most painful cramps I have ever had in my life (so much so I almost had to call in sick) coupled with the continued bloating and general bleurgh-ness.
I think the proper bleeding started just after my visit to the GP on Wednesday, whether the internal prompted it or not I am not sure. It wasn’t like normal period blood though, fresher looking and very red. It didn’t really get that heavy (which it usually is) either. The amount of blood seemed out of kilter with the amount of pain. On Friday there was something other than blood, something bigger than a clot and (pardon the imagery) quite meaty. I have no idea what it was but took it as a bad sign nonetheless.
Whether I have actually been pregnant I suppose we will never know. I am just keen now to get back to normal and start trying again. An article in the Independent yesterday prompted me to download the app ‘Clue’ which is basically a cycle tracker. It was useful to go back over my symptoms over the past week and it will hopefully help me with the counting going forward.
I don’t know what to expect from the appointment this morning. I am not sure what the doc can say or do. Perhaps she’ll suggest some tests? Perhaps not. At least I am on the radar now and moving to the next stage of the conception journey.
And that is exactly what the doctor said, test was negative (unsurprisingly) so no idea whether what I went through was a very early miscarriage or just a blip in my cycle. I am booked in for blood tests mid-cycle (estimated) and if they’re ok husband may have to have his swimmers tested, not sure how he will react to that!